wonderwoman

let there be Lights! :)))

2010-01-20T03:27:00.002+08:00

Be steady on your feet,

No matter the trouble you meet;

Lions make you brave.

Giants give you faith,

Death is a charade.

You don't have to feel safe to feel unafraid.

- Lights :)

the endless supply of 'drama'

2009-12-15T20:20:00.003+08:00

when the dog bites
when the bee stings
when i'm feeling sad
I simply remember my favourite things
and then I don't feel so bad

it has come to this indeed...

2009-12-15T20:13:00.006+08:00

aku tak kisah 2 shits langsung!!!!!!

ahmad, i miss you c:

mistakes....

2009-12-14T02:19:00.002+08:00

"mistakes after mistakes. i'll never criticize romeo again" - Edward Cullen, New Moon.

i have done a lot of mistakes in my life but only recently i felt the cascade effects of it.

i'm not sure if it started with one and led to another or whether it started with one and unfold a lot of others.

there are just too many emotions one can keep in one's chest. but there are also too many secrets one can keep telling to their friends.

buntu. i am buntu indeed. i don't know what to do. and it is torturing to not know what to do.

i see the faces on facebooks that are familiar, to get a sign - any sign - but nothing.

i opened my books, but nothing.

i was in a conversation and still nothing. - sorry sweetheart.

this is not a post if accusation. just ramblings.

it's better to pour out the abstract on writings than to get in detail with a friend, not being sure how much is there to tell.

xoxo, The Lady

why cry?

2009-12-07T16:24:00.004+08:00

i cry far too much within this few months than the i ever had in my 18 years of life.
well some might be due to nicholas spark's signature style of killing his characters. *for the love of God!*

recently, i've been crying because of a friend.
nad. this goes to you. i'm making it public as how you made yours.

people change. i used to fight tears but now they flow like there's no tomorrow.
we used to hang out at mamak stalls and drink cheap teh O ais and have fun.
now, it feels like it's not good enough.
mamak's not good enough.
i have changed too but not good enough that i could scarcely hang around you guys that much.

jumpa sekali sekala maybe. to say hi and stuff i guess.
i don't enjoy karaoke.
i don't wanna be driving around in different cars to faraway places just because of the attraction.
i don't wanna sit in a corner thinking what did i miss?
i don't wanna be alone when i'm surrounded by you guys.

i just wanna hear you guys sing along with the radio.
i want to just park somewhere and play teka teki and laugh it out loud because they're all universally stupid.
i wanna sit in a circle with everyone and don't have to say a word to be in the conversation
i wanna feel belonged.

but i don't nad. and it's not just because of you. it's because of me.
we're growing up towards different directions.
kau terasa sebab kita bercakap pasal kau behind your back?
don't be. you've changed nad.
and i didn't even know all of these from you.
don't say aku tiba2 ditch kau from my life because since aku datang sini, i rarely hear from you.
i hear stories of you.
I AM THE ONE WHO ASKED AROUND ABOUT YOU.
diorang tak sambil lewa cakap2 pasal kau.
aku yang mintak. dan kalau aku tak mintak, maknanya aku dah tak kisah dengan apa yang dah jadi ngn hidup kau. but i don't.
i'm sorry kalau apa yang kau dengar kau tak suka, but it's the truth.
you know why kita tak bagitau kau?
sebab kita ni kawan, cakap2 nak kasi luah perasaan je. dah habis tu dah2 lah kan.

aku boleh je kasi kau cold shoulder when i picked you up. but i didn't.
whatever happened in the car on the way to pick you up was just to release all forms of anger and frustration and disappointment.
tapi nad, bila kau cakap kau sedih sebab gaduh ngn afiq time tu, i was shocked. sebab dalam phone, you said you were sad because you weren't there. and i for once believed you nad.

all of the things you've heard, i'm sorry if it breaks your heart.
i'd rather let it all out than keeping them inside. i'm not sorry you knew though.
i'm just sorry you realise you've been doing them all this while.

whatever personality you've picked up along the way since we shared secret stories and remarks together, i have to say that i'm not comfortable with it.
i know i don't have a say in it. and i don't even have the right to ask you to change.
and i won't nad.
i'll keep worrying about you, keep trying to counteract whatever ditchings you might be doing in near future, but i won't ask you to change.
i'll just keep on hoping that maybe, when the time comes and when we're like old times again, you're the old you again.

call me old fashion, call me nostalgic, call me miss-i-don't-wanna-change-a-thing, but all i ever wanted was to have fun like we used to, because believe it or not, the past is the only thing we have in common as for now.

until we sit down and have some kind of a slumber party to update on what's going on and stuff, yeap... we're friends for old times sake.

i'm sorry i'm an emotional wreck. i should've known not to put too feel to bonded, that's all.

-nil-

2009-10-19T22:28:00.000+08:00

I've been roaming around
Always looking down at all I see
Painted faces, fill the places I cant reach

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody

Someone like you, And all you know, And how you speak

Countless lovers under cover of the street

fireflies fly high in the sky

2009-10-09T15:46:00.002+08:00

yesterday night was wicked! thanks to all fireflies, we had tremendous amount of FUN.

the sweat
the time
the energy
the shoutings (lol)
the strepsils
the sleep-cutting
the class-skipping

hey guys, it was worth it all. our batch started off badly in the early 1st year.

but we cheered, and everyone cheered hard.
we might not win the trophy, but we won hearts. :)

thank you fireflies. we are forever winners. woooohoooooo!!!!!!!!!

p/s : pictures and videos will be uploaded soon enough. stay tuned. c:

i tell myself no but..

2009-10-06T15:23:00.002+08:00

should i be requited , i'm uncertain.

but somehow, sometimes, the question pops up, "what went wrong?"

and the frustrating part is that, i'll never know. :)

but maybe... just maybe...
life would not have felt this good if nothing went wrong.

facebook is so unhealthy. *sigh

xoxo, A

cheer much?

2009-10-05T21:19:00.004+08:00

GOOO FIREFLIES!!!

"in the darkest night, we will shine"

just stop taking up my sleeping hours. *roles eyes*

mencarut

2009-10-05T18:48:00.001+08:00

punya la aku balik2 klas semangat nak buat blog list baru aku tertekan backspace tanpa henti tanpa save sebijik haram.

"mother(&$*&#$&*Q*&*#&@*(#&$*$&RU*@#(@#&())&(!?/\-"

pms ni bukan buat pompuan jadi buas malah bodoh.

sekian...

15 minutes to prostho.

2009-10-05T16:00:00.003+08:00

as i have repeated this for over a million times and i swear to god, *currently, my favourite line* kamil would've vomit blood to read this after having eons of hours listening to it on the phone :

i am so bloody sick of classes.

question mark?
- because i've been going to classes since i was 4. and, i'm still going to classes now that i'm turning 20. i swear to god, in the future, i'll let my own children have their own way.

"taknak pergi klas? no sweat. jom main NFS sampai muntah pastu gi makan nasi lemak paru kat telawi pastu belgian waffle kat h&d kita pergi toys r us beli pony baru!!!!!!!"

omg. heaven sial!

xoxo, A

P08 232, II BDS PIDC Winter '08

2009-10-04T17:12:00.002+08:00

as far as i am concerned, this has got to be the first time that i hate moving on to next year. i hate II BDS!!!!

practical works!! books!! money!! ODS!! instruments instruments instruments!! why why why?? it makes me think again of the motivation i had to take this course. was it seriously for real? damn son.

the only thing that i look forward to, is that it'll be over in salem in less than a year. godd, that feels good. lol.

ami sweetheart, i'm sorry i haven't been posting to you for quite sometime. trouble in paradise accompanied by sucky acquaintances here in this godforsaken place.

yaya, you would know what that feels like. :)

i miss old times. when's the next reunion? lol.

xoxo, A

01.08.09

2009-08-01T20:36:00.001+08:00

i'm on blog.

and finals are on monday.

am i crazy? :'c

i want more

2009-03-27T02:34:00.002+08:00

it's 2.37 in the morning.

ain nad apom dan faiz ( kawan apom ) mungkin tlh selesai berkaraoke dan berada di dilik masing2.

rindunyaaaa

saisha mungkin juga di dalam bilik tapi status ym : online - available. pelik.

rindunyaaa

mieza mungkin juga di dalam bilik. cabut bulu kaki. hehe. mungkin mungkin

rindunyaaa

topa poih jauhnyaaaaaaaa mereka

rindunyaaa

muk mungkin di dalam bilik dibuai mimpi. sebab tu je yang dia berkemungkinan besar buat setahu aku. :D

rindunyaaaa

bubu mungkin dah tidur. it was a long day for him but he never showed it. kena perang dingin dalam kereta pun dia masih sangat sweet dan rasa macam nak cubit2 muscle olok2 dia tu. :D
*sorry false statement. the muscle is original. c:

now i regret i told you off. i feel like i want to just turn around and continue bual2 lagi dalam kereta.

rindunyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

i want more of these. *sigh*

what's the point

2009-03-23T03:47:00.002+08:00

what's the point in telling myself i'd get over it when i won't. darn it alia! you've been in that living hell for almost half a year now and you're still crying when it comes to counting the days to go back.

holidays are so nice here. carefree. stressfree and hell, i'm back home. i don't care if i have to sleep on my hard matress. i don't care if my house is stuffy at noon. i don't care if there's nothing much left in the fridge. they're all here. and they're all as hell better than back there. gosh emosi pulak.

okay dnt get me wrong. india is not THAT bad. but i'm living in a place that is. i am grateful still. i know it's not fair for me to compare salem with kl. because different places, different prospects. well, the thing is that. i have a thing for home. and call me old fashion, but i'm the type who doesnt mind spending the day, two, three or maybe the week at home. lol.

my friends are here. and they are my life. and i LOVE seeing them. being in the car with them. watching stupid movies with them. lol. eat, drink, talk. i dream of spending the night with them and share our lifestories too macam kat 12th dulu2. c: dreams are dreams. i know.

but you see... i haven't been around. oh hell i want to . i really really want to be around!!! and i can see that most of us have grown. *amende ni? mestilah*.
what i meant is lifewise. before we met, we were different people with different personalities. which was why i had sooo much fun those days. everyone would come up with different stuffs. but the one thing i effing love about these people are their sense of humour. god, i've missed it.c:

and this holiday, i can see we've grown apart. not really apart cam gaduh. no, not that. but... it's just that. we've grown limited. hmm

dulu2, the whole day i'd make myself free for them. for last-minute hangouts. for late at night mapley. even for when nak 'olok2' blajar kat cafe. lol. but i had fun. through and through i did. c:

and i'm the idiot bastard.

all i ever should be doing right now is hitting myself on the wall for recalling those glorious, exciting, adrenaline rushes of past time. lepas tu terserot sendiri sebab rindu. pfft.

back to being limited. time is a big one. everyone is just so busy nowadays. family, assignements, boyfriends, girlfriends, other friends, faculty events, college events, varsity events and well.. a lot more.
dulu2, 24 jam, tada hal lah. sekarang ni, tgk jam pukul 9 pun dah start fidgeting. and i'd curse why the hell did people invent night to start at 7? bodoh!

money comes after. we are students. true. and we are dependent on money sources. ptpn, father mother, and to some, the economy. ;p it seems so hard. and money really don't grow on trees. so, it's like.. if you don't have them. you just don't have them. *sigh*

and then the best of the best are the everyday problems. every stinking day there has to be at least one minor masalah dunia yang perlu diselesaikan ASAP. and we are 20 now.
those problems just keep piling up. tell me how to go out with friends and have a WOW time when your head is saturated with all these problems only created by the illusions of these lunatics mediocrity that life with troubles means something. pushes you to go forward.

what about my illusions? what about wanting a normal life? eating whatever affordable? putting back stuffs back on the rack that is of no need? loving life? loving peace?

i envy those people living on the countryside. they might have those common problems like how to pay the bills and to find food and stuff but at least that's better than constantly worrying of what the future holds.

i just want to be happy with the people i love. and i am the most in my past. am i being that absurd?

xoxo, A

goody foody.

2009-03-23T02:35:00.003+08:00

stimulus tidak dilampirkan bersama dalam warkah ini.
atas sebab gambar tak sempat diambil sebelum baca doa makan.
mungkin kerana keinginan membuas si perut yang menyebabkan point itu tidak tertranslate ke dalam kepalaotak ini.
walau bagaimanapun, hampir 70% daripada wishlist telah di fulfill. keep it up Alia!

malaysia my LOVE!

DAY 1 : friday
dinner : ikan masak kukus, kangkung belacan, telur dadar =9, ayam masak merah

DAY 2 : saturday
breakfast : tak ingat. oh ye. bubu saya datang rumah, :D
lunch : dalam perjalanan ke jb
dinner : nasi beriyani siakk!!

DAY 3 : sunday
lunch : nasi dadah nyayi and kelo. :s
dinner : nenas masak sedap tu kot!!

DAY 4 : monday
lunch : dinner semalam punya
dinner : burger ramly (checked)

DAY 5 : tuesday

lunch : nasi dadah, ikan goreng, kicap, tempe goreng - TERBAIK!
dinner : pizza hut! - their favourite (nyayi and yayi)
**when i said favourite mmg betul favourite okay. tak sah balik jb kalau tak order pizza. ;p

DAY 6 : wednesday
dinner : azza's fried drummets. :D
maaf. lunch dan bfast tak igt.

DAY 7 : thursday
lunch : nasi dadah, tauhu lemak, ikan goreng =99
dinner : nasi dadah, ikan goreng dan tak igt

DAY 8 : friday
breakfast : bubur ikan di hospital
lunch : donat sedap di stesyen larkin
hi tea : buah buahan di RnR senawang *oh heavenn*
dinner : twister, cheesy wedges - kfc in front of pudu bus stop

DAY 9 : saturday
breakfast : french toast
brunch : roti dan sambal telur dadah toklang
lunch : nasi goreng + mee goreng + yee mee sth? *aksi melampau*
dinner : nuggets, french fries, popcorn - disney on ice. c:
supper : char koay teow + ayam tandoori + teh o ais. *amik kau!!*

DAY 10 : sunday
lunch : nasi sth2 from the mini wok di mv.
dinner : di belanja. eheh. *peranjat akak!*
supper : nasi lemak ayam goreng + teh o ais. *pffffftttt*

DAY 11 : monday - present day
breakfast : bau imran on my face. lol
lunch : mushroom chicken rice by madam kwan
snacks : ruffles yang enak!
dinner : sup ayam aliff * bapak ah*

so i believe i have completed the itineraries of my 1 week stay in this blissfull country. was hoping that darnit saisha to be present with picture. unfortunately, sampah. lol.

ain sangat sangat sangat active dgn pet society. sumpah tak faham motif kut.

bubu sangat sangat intim dgn budak haniff tu currently. hmmm hmmm? tgk movie lewat malam nampak. lol.

so i guess i'm alone for now. oh man........ time is passing by.
BUBU I MISS YOU! *tiba2* ;p

minggu depan mesti semorang sekolah. mcam mana nak lepak ni?? dah lah tak ada kereta you stupid Alia Ghazali. *down semula*

xoxo, A

upon saisha's request

2009-03-21T03:00:00.002+08:00

frankly, i don't think i still have the urge to blog. *sial kau tamil nadu!*

which is not fair. for me. or for those small group of people that still come to my page upon new updates. thank you darlings.c:

i like blogging. i used to. i still do. i mean. i wish i was as energetic as before. but darn it! all this hard studies and stuffs are getting into me.

i'm becoming more generic. more boring.... more blahh type and it's just frustrating to be the one listening to conversations and trying to figure out things that people seem to be talking about only to find that "oh, no wonder i understood nothing. i wasn't effing here!!!"

*psheh*

okay so starting off as a generic, boring, invisible side of me...... is my oh-so-interesting course.

idk. the first time i got hold of this ludricuous dream of becoming a dentist, all i ever was interested in is that how cool the job would be. good gracious, little that i know. the study was insurmountable and ridiculous!!

when i was a normal person, i found that a tooth is soooo insignificant. i mean. how much can someone describe the details that happened to be in this small fragment of our body right?

intermission
*i seem to be pleasing almost everyone who pleases me at this point.*

thank you piqal for the call. kau ni macam2 kut! c:

back to the topic.....

well, instead of what most of my peers are thinking of my course.

dari POV saisha "kau cerita la pasal kau check gigi orang mati"
dari POV kakten "kau cerita sikit pasal bedah mayat:
dari POV most of them "cane check gigi orang mati do?"

darlings.... i did none of those. HAHAHA. and emm. i dnt think i will even be doing it for the rest of my course. the only practical i have for now which is of course the most excrutiating one of the year would be ODS and dental materials.

all i do is just mixing stuffs and making molds of teeth. i dont deal with any living teeth or patients just yet. lol.
and all those crap i said about tooth capping ke crowning ke. never come into practicals. just theories basically. lol.
so in summary, i crap. :D

darn it. i dnt wanna go back. i love going to mamak and eating char koay teow and seeing foods, fruits, FISH everywhere. here in my home. c:

alia loves you, malaysia. x:

home is where the heart is

2009-03-13T07:48:00.002+08:00

I'M COMING BACKK!!!!!

back home.
back to where all goody good foods await.
back to where a sweetheart WILL be waiting without fail. ;p
back to azza and arman's dorkiness.
back to mom's embrace.
back to nyayi and yayi's very2 enjoyable moments of 'togetherness'.
back to saadah and imran's missable voices and chatters.
back to toklang's cooking of pure 'love'.

heck... back to life.
hee hee heeeeeeee

- whining section -

une - i'm having a major-to-be-ketumbit *of all the time in the world*
render - my legs are effing sore thanks to them effing mosquitoes.
muner - my bag is overweight
nale - I am overweight
anjhi - this place stinks. :s

more verbs to come. guaranteed.

xoxo,
A

at home...

2008-12-29T23:32:00.005+08:00

at home...
i feel belong.
like it doesn't matter where i go. i won't have to worry about getting lost. i can just ask for directions. getting conned is never a fear, it's war. laughter is not a craving. it's a MUST. c:

at home...
i feel whole.
as if everything is right where it belong. mom's always there. azza and arman goofing around. ain with her "ak okay je". nad and her stupid jokes. saisha laughing out loud. mus cracking the riddles. bubu making my day everyday. muk dengan lawak bodoh. mieza and the eating disorder. poih and the mencarut tuut..tuut periods. apom with the 'touching2' part. topa making me pee in my pants all the time.c:

at home...
i feel free.
calls are cheap. texts are even cheaper. prepaids are sold everywhere. and there are even rm5 prepaids. calling bubu is never something i have to think about twice. internet is not a problem. no firewalls. blogging is an everyday activity. so no worries about having an emotional breakdown. i'll just write everything down before it gets me.c:

i like being at home. i miss being at home. err well, i am home but i know i'll miss it. i wish i will get to be at home soon after this. mak. alia nk balik march ek. please mak. pleaasseeee..c:

i'll promise i'd do good in studies. i'll promise i'd ace the internals. and i'll promise to get a sponsor for the flight ticket. i just like being at home. oh wait. rephrase. i LOVE being at home. x:

okay2. aku mmg anak manja. but having a mom like mine. a brother and sister like them. a sweetheart like bubu and a group of effing laughing monsters friends like i do, wouldn't home be the heaven on earth?c:

XOXO, A

go shorty. it's her birthday

2008-12-29T22:42:00.003+08:00

she's talkative. she's annoying. she's adorable. she's siti saadah.

24th december - "kakak malu laaa..."

so, 2 months really did changed how these cute annoying dumplings see me as. dulu menyelit2. sekarang, semua sengih busuk je. like i care. lol. they talk so so so much. and their english are just so annoying i feel like slapping te crap out of them. :D

we took her to toys r us. kesian kan budak ni. mak dia tak pernah bawak pergi that ultimate kiddies heaven. instead, her mak nee has to take the responsibility. lol. and as expected. she was awestruck!! gap. not even a word. lol.

but well, she got all she asked for. tu lagi lah unreal kan. lol. tak aci betul. and when i asked mom for a new hard disk since my laptop is like sarat nak mampos! - it's a No.

i love holidays. i love KL. i don't want to go back there. :'c

sorry lambat apit. :D

2008-12-26T03:37:00.003+08:00

this one is tagged by apit decades ago. hee hee.

7 benda pelik diriku?

1. my legs. -_-'
2. i use to pretend a conversation or a scene before i go to sleep untill i was 15. well, em, maybe sometimes now too. c:
3. i use to have huge fights with guys back at my school but now i'm ready to die for one. ;p and the fights were really2 huge macam main sepak2 macam tu. yes :DD
4. i once dreamt of becoming an acrobat so that i could become the next pink ranger after kimberly.
5. my moodswings are unpredictable. tanya bubu. kan bubu kan? :D
6. when i'm in toys r us, i can never miss to glance at "my little pony's" section.
7. i'm so in love with my friends that i remember EVERYTHING we did dulu2. c: well, akak nostalgia lah kan. c:

alaa, even if i do tag anyone, i bet semuaorang mcm dah buat je tag ni. :D

let's ha ha ha

2008-12-25T03:58:00.004+08:00

due to this late entry and all other perished insurmountable entries for 1 solid month, i beg your forgiveness. no further comments on that catastrophe. but there's only one thing i would like to say :

SCREW PIDC NETWORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

current victory : HiE. hew hew. I pUnk GuRLsZ. Ley KnaL? aHax.

time estimation of 1 full sentence : 23.7 seconds

grade : impressive!!!

reference to : ain, nad, miza, amer, :DD

RANDOM FACTLETS IN MY HEAD

you know what people, i love you guys. and i love toklang's food. sedap sedap sedap nk mampos okay!

i miss bubu. he is err... working out i guess. lol. tapi i want want want to see him so badly. si budak pinchable tu. :)

i wish i don't have to go to singapore this friday.

i wish i don't have to go out of KL at all for this holiday.

i wish santa could grow on trees and air flight tickets too.

i wish i can grow a tree myself.

i wish i get more wishes.

why is it that when i wear bubu's deoderant, it smells so plain on me. but when it's on him. it is effffffing gooooood. macam macam macam macam emmm... macam nk stop talking and stop exhaling. :DDD

why do i think farid kamil is good looking? well not to a point of drooling. is it because my vision is rupturing rapidly or is it because of the 'kamil' at the end of his name? ;p

mak, alia nk ayam masak lomak cili api mak. oh mak. oh mak mak mak.

amer pernah kena ngorat by maknyah tiga posen. roar!;p too bad he washed her away. poor girl. :(

i want to have fish!

i want that grilled pan dory from secret recipe and the shrimp cocktail at tony roma's.

i want to get seriously fat and tell people that i'm skinny to death and give out phrases like "don't you think i need to eat more?"

i want to hug a tree and sing 'here in my home' softly to it.

i want a new barbie doll.

i want people to take a lot of candid pictures of me with bubu. :D

i want to learn how to play guiter so that i can sing 'jumper' alone.

i want to sing sing sing and i don't care what people say

i think i want to go to uruguay and malfunction for 1 whole day in a green grassfield listening to shiela on 7 and santana. c:

i think i want to send bubu a message and buzz budak gigi besi tu sekarang.

you know you love me,

XOXO, A

i think...

2008-10-28T23:38:00.002+08:00

i think i regretted taking the nap just now for 3 unfathomable reasons:
1) now all of a sudden, the bulb in the toilet just stop functioned resulting into a fat stinky pig, uncleaned.
2) i am having a major headache. still in trans i suppose. i think i got a few calls just now. from bubu and fara. but now, i guess, i've been imagining it. hmm...
3) i am really really hungry. :s

well, one thing's for sure, i've fast forward the whole evening. phewhh. finally! what a long long long day it has been. and tomorrow, is just another petty day.

xoxo, A

you know you love me..

2008-10-28T20:57:00.004+08:00

wth! i just finished GG2 epi. 4. and grrr.. i'm aching to see more. haihh. i should've known myself better. this GG fever wont go away until i've watch it millions of time. WHY WHY did i even got it started in the first place?? WHY alia WHYYYY??

for the upteenth time, i understood nothing from classes. as for today, the five of us seems to be drugged or something of sort because apparently since tooth morphology, we were sort of high. - yea, in sleep - then came the theory classes which is well even worse than practicals. thank God nothing is to be submitted tomorrow. i might be having brain haemorphage if i continue to goggle over more biochemistry structures and what-nots. worst subject of all time. PERIOD.

i'm having running nose and i'm running out of tissue. and since it's so hard to find tissues here in salem itself, i can say that, i am running out of mental sources to wipe the goo off my face. ouh, this place is really mencabar! nak berak pun kena makan biskut. perlu ke? i think i'm sleepy. i think i should get a nap. i think......................... i'll take the nap. -_-zzz

xoxo,
C.E.D

*p/s: i've watched the latest HD trailer. OMFG!! it was so effing cool!!! i got fara loving her few likeable Ang Mo and our miss dixie montana to be excited to go catch it. please people do cross all you have because i would have to perform an unnecessary act of begging mak to allow my stay at home if spunk is not in india theatres. i swear to God. "i just want some answers.... one theory" ailabbb!!!!

malam ini...

2008-10-28T01:57:00.002+08:00

yayyy. we had mash potato. *instant. but still...*

we had diwali dinner party at kamini's room just now. and it's a yayy so far for today. considering how many hours i spend that did not involve basuh baju and books. -_-'

and now.. i have the better codec in my laptop. so i can peacefully watch GG season2. i know i'm lame.c: notebook pun baru tgk. but wth, i know bubu still LOVES my lame-ness. ha ha.

i miss him dodol!!c:

a late post..

2008-10-23T23:14:00.005+08:00

i am such a bad girlfriend. *fullstop*

22-10-08 : we're officially one year old baby!c: it may seem nothing much to some. but to me, it's more than just a number. it's a lot lot more than that.c:

sayang, i know yday i didn't pay much attention to us. i'm sorry.

i know i became so busy with classes, i forgot to feel how it felt like whenever our 22nd day of the month came in mind. i'm sorry.

*tapi i tak lupa pun nak call you! - you just sort of beat me to it c:*

and i know being busy with classes is a lame excuse. i'm sure you are too kan?c: so i'm double sorry.

by the end of the day, i realized you got tired waiting for me to go oL. and i'm really sorry for that sayang. i should've known better. but i'm glad we did got oL even for a while.c:

but then, it got me thinking. we are already 1 year old. but that's not just it right?c: we'll keep the numbers up kan sayang? we can still continue to count and count.

*i'm not taking maths now, so i dnt mind doing the counting. ;p*

thank you for everything love. this might not be as best as yours. but it's just the best i could give. *i'm getting nerdier every single day!! ;p*

besides, you know i'm at best when i'm with you. rugi je sebab sekarang i'm writing alone. :D kalau you kat sebelah, gerenti meletop post ni. lol.

i love you baby.. always have, always will x:

tak ada class day..

2008-10-21T17:35:00.002+08:00

last night, i slept late. why? - due to stupid chess (that later on i was told that my spot has been replaced by someone else) and also trying to finish up my oral histology ass. (which i failed to finish up too) :D

and well, due to a sudden jolt of exercise yesterday (basketball practice in mud), along with my shirts kena luntur colour (kena basuh again), you can say that i am hell exhausted. i slept around 1. i know it's early, but it is late for us here. *i slept without edward -_-' but with bubu :)*

this morning, i woke up lazily as usual only to find that balraj is in the shower. i guessed she woke up late too. ;p so, i bumped back to bed gila wishing harini takde class - it was raining outside :D. and as if my prayer was heard, a senior knocked my door and told that all pidc students' classes are cancelled. ALHAMDULILLAH! - and i continued my sleep. :))))))))))

so, i woke up at 11 or sth. no, wait 12. orrrr, maybe 1. ;p lets say around noon lah. ;p it was a really really really good sleep i had so far. a FREE sleep. c: i woke up and turned my laptop on. scavenge over yday's unfinished ass. and work on it. i chatted with bubu, ain and kakshima too. bapak multi-tasking. lol.

harini adalah diet day - bread and jam.
reason's behind this extaordinary phenomenon:
a) malas nak makan kat luar.
b)bgn lambat. michelle, adric and fara have had their lunch already.
c) jaki dah lama tak makan roti and jam :D

today i smell like my old smell. godd, i thought i can never smell like this. good news!!! :D i think i need a break. we all do. *excess eyebags* i think we've almost settled in here. things are going on accordingly. michelle just got here package last night. lol. fara and i went sakai over it.;p

but wth, nothing beats home. i miss it too much. :)
xoxo, C.E.D

yayy sikit

2008-10-15T01:23:00.003+08:00

akhirnya. after almost two weeks here, i finally got to know that my chair can be lifted taller than how i use to sit! :DD yelah jaki la. tapi boleh tahan cramp la tulang belakang asyik nak jengket je everytime nak oL kan. so anyhoots. today i topped up! :D tapi malangnya ye rakan2. masih takde duit. - celaka* and then, what's more, today tak ada practice futsal. okay, ini bukan rela hati tapi terpaksa. how can they expect me to kick a ball when i can actually sleep in a stadium. as stated above, i only watch football for the guys not the sport. maaf tapi ye, saya mmg that common. terima kasih.

oh ye, an encounter with language problems. dixie and i had to argue over a stupid reload card with a shopkeeper who clearly thought that we didn't pay him. WE PAID LAA!!! and the worst part is, he didn't top dixie up until we came later after class to his shop with a translator. tambi ni semua sama je. bengap!

homework today cam banyak weh. they're making us read and write a lot due to fakap rajesh yang tak kasi2 lagi dental kit. so then, i guess tomorrow's practicals would be..... just the same. demmit, i have no more shirts for this week. i guess i have to make do with the collared t-shirts. terima kasih universiti malaya. lol

all in all, my life here is soooooo goddarn boring. and i am writing this as well because of.. yelah boring. one thing i like about india so far is... the icecream. bak kata fara : "addictive bah.."c:

i miss bubu. *oops* :D
C.E.D

today i..

2008-10-13T02:23:00.003+08:00

... tak ada electricity
... tak ada air
... ada practice
... tak ada credit
... ada cheerleading practice :s
... tak ada duit
... nak balik
talked to Mak, Azza and Arman! :)
talked to Bubu caca. :D
... makan nasi tembam *geli do*
had Berahim 'ayam masak merah' with fara. ;p
... laze in bed
... have nothing to read *twilight fara dah baca*
... just found out that my skype is such a crap application!!!!
... tido lambat. :O

mengidam soto lah =9 dan kuih sagu merah =9 dan roti jala =9 dan koayteow hailam kat ss2 =9 dan burger ramlee =9

mak, kakak macam homesick..
C.E.D

now, i'm pissed

2008-10-11T18:53:00.002+08:00

fucking internet too slow. i can't watch the new twilight trailer. sial la. dah la tak dapat tgk premier. :s i'm so sorry edward. i will be watching it. and i don't care how! if i hve to drive up to bangalore then so be it!!!! I HAVE TO WATCH TWILIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

xoxo,
C.E.D

phonecalls and updates..

2008-10-11T18:22:00.004+08:00

today i'm happy. c:
i got to speak to :
mak . maklong . kak aina . aza . bubu . mus . miza . ain . kak mimi . acap . and bubu balik ;p
(meka beraya...:c)

you have no idea how much a phonecall from msia can make me feel. like i just swallow gushes of fresh air (yg macam kat forks ;p)

i miss everyone at home. :c i really do. but at least, life here has been better from the last first few days. i made friends and they're cool. they are all very helpful too. we started gossiping for almost 2hours now. so, that's a good thing right? :D

apart from the scorching sun and f*cked up blackouts, i think, i can survive here. cuma p**dek ah rajesh tu. one thing i learn about here is that, we have to always be 5 minutes early and they will always be 15 minutes late. talking about services? bila dia cakap tomorrow tu, maknanya minggu depan ah. so selamat maju jaya gak ah ngn orang2 kat sini.

the town is also quite okay. of course la tak macam kl. but then, ive expected worse. c: i guess i'm settling in. i hope i get to pindah to michelle's room soon. then, that would be my official statement of settling in.c: i have just a handful of pictures for now. i'll get the others from my friends ASAP.c: btw, please do imagine the stench while you go through the pictures, ;p baru real. imagine bau hancing and hapak.c:

sorry la eh. the babi connection here making it susah to upload gambar. i will rectify that as soon as i can. tapi sumpah lah, aku tak eager langsung nak tunjuk korang tempat ni. buat kasi simpati kat aku je. -_-'

i love you all a LOT!
C.E.D *back on track ;p*

a big journey starts with a small step

2008-10-08T13:13:00.003+08:00

........ unfortunately fir me, this first step just had to be :
1. dusty
2. smelly (hancing dan hapak)
3. not having a permanent room
4. membakar kulit, jiwa dan raga.... -_-'

i'm not trying to be a crybaby. who wants to right? i just can't help it here. you pay greens for the worst service there is? phonecalls, electricity, water are all just inadequate. makanan kemain pedas. hilang selsema.

i miss mom
i miss azza and arman
i miss kamil
i miss my akak2 abang2
i miss my gadix
i miss home......
and i miss the smell of nothingness

people here seems to be enjoying the life. then again, i ask myself. what life is there? hmm...

buang masa je baca..

2008-09-21T14:15:00.003+08:00

bosan ek. apasal la bosan sangat. bosan ni macam membosankan. perlu ke rasa bosan ni ada? bosan ni macam tak diperlukan. tapi kenapa agaknya wujud bosan ni? bosan ni kalau cakap 15 kali cepat2, jadi macam membosankan. saya rasa bosan tu macam gila bosan ah. perasaan bosan ni macam takde perasaan pulak rasa macam nk turun dan berjasa pada keluarga dan masyarakat. tapi macam malas. rasa macam nk mandi. tapi malas. rasa macam nk pack2 barang. tapi malas. rasa macam nk tgk tv. tapi malas. rasa macam nk kena kemas bilik. tapi malas. rasa macam nk makan. tapi..... puasa. hehe. bosan tu macam malas ke? hmmmm...

.alia ni memang pemalas.

we love you fish!

2008-09-17T01:19:00.005+08:00

we love you fishy!!! c:

it's not to be a surprise. we've always known he had asma since he was small. but to see him that way. it was just, so.... painful. he's only two. but he has to know which medicine to eat when he coughs and just swallow it up. dari si lincah yang cakap non stop, he'd be sleeping the whole day. lying around the house. and knows when to use the nebulizer. he was poorly controlled. itu sebab la now, he has bronchitis. kecik2 dah macam tu. on the bright side, at least he won't smoke if he doesnt want to die. lol.

our favourite peter rabbit

"abang ada nafas"

oh well....

he still poses and talks during the cleansing and stuffs. at least that's one part of him we know will never go away. lol

xOoOoXOxoXoxoOXOxoXOxoOXxoOXXOx, A

russel brand is nothing but an imposter fag

2008-09-12T02:14:00.004+08:00

with nothing to do. i, as usual browsed through this one promising twilight fanclub. i love a clean-cut website.c: anyways, after reading a few articles. i am so fucking pissed with russel brand. as i said to bubu, and i quote, "i know he's retarded but i didnt actually take him for somewhat mental-disabled".

seriously, he of all people should know that millions of twilight fans might be tuning into vma's craps just for the sake of rob's appearence and maybe a bit more line than just, "please welcome.."

he never really did impressed me as a comedian. and well, it seems like, he's just a JOKE.

twilight trailer

2008-09-10T12:51:00.005+08:00

tv is borring.

wanna know why i keep watching twilight trailer again and again?

it's.... complicated. ;p

it's breathtaking. just so everything is clear, i'm not in love with robert.

it's edward. it's just him. *winks*

plus, or what's worth, i can already read out the lines in the trailers. lol.

observe....

---------------------------------------

"i know what you are"

"youre impossibly fast..... and strong"

"your skin is pale white and, ice cold" - B

"are you afraid?" - E (my favorite part!!!)

"i'm only afraid of losing you" - B

"i'm not the most dangerous thing out there" - E

"security guard, richard mill got killed by some kind of animal" - C

"an animal?" - B

"you brought a snack" - J

"what? now he's going to come after me?" - B

"he's got unparallel senses. absolutely lethal" - L

"i'll do whatever it takes to make you safe again"

"the hunt is his obsession"

"HE'LL NEVER STOP!" - E

"he'll come to avenge you" - J

-------------------------------

what's your favorite part? ;p

C.E.D

my two weeks of pure adrenaline rush

2008-09-08T14:33:00.006+08:00

unicorn.. ponies.. flying carpets.. those were all my essence for fun once. when i was a kid. i didn't think mak thought of any harm for me when she planted these seeds of mythical creatures in my head and soul (cewah). well, seeming i've never fret myself to enjoy their presence in my conspicuous - to my parents - imagination of course. lol.

but anyhoot, i can't blame her for the mess i am now and was in junior school or even high school. ;p i love my immagination which ticks people off sometimes. if it wasn't for maturity i could have crossed over to the freaks of unknown and play quietly with the images in my head. i didn't have imaginary friends, but i liked to pretend i do to a point where, i get to make them alive... in me - ended up me talking to myself - while playing the scene in my head. my sister found it scary. thank god she's never seen me like that though. i think nobody has ever seen me in that world of mine. i make sure i'm in control before i start to split my body into two. ;p but then again... i guess, i'm telling it to everyone now that i'm writing it down. c:

as i grew, my immaginations never ceased. it grew even more intense and well.. shapeshifting. adapting to the pattern of present lifestyle. when i first got hold of harry potter - i was 10 - i realized, the mythical creatures never did leave me. they were always there. just a bit overshadowed by my instincts to adapt to junior school (i wasn't doing much of a progress anyway). but when harry potter came into my life, it was salvation. i felt well.. alive for quite sometime being a zombie. i just found reasons. excitement that i didn't know i could feel. immediately, i got back on track. i found friends who had the same instincts. and i caved up with them until it was time for partings. high school...

harry potter got me throught that one too. but didn't have much effect on my life due to my imbalance hormonal progress. however, i never let go of the thought.c: *my friends in lenggong would definitely remember this one.;p* then, i had found real friends which seems harder for me to be as commited as i was to my dreamworld because of well... you could call it puberty. lol. though i spend little time in my imaginary world, it has never fail to inspire me good essence in life, i was truly in debt. not that for the past 3 years in lenggong i did not read other substances. i did. but, they didn't make much of an impact to my life as i can see now.c:

i left lenggong and continued langkawi. i felt lost and petrified at times of this sudden change. harry distinctively caught my attention those days - i swear i've read it more then 10 times - and i was really getting a hard time to fit in. and again, my immagination saved me. it looked as if it was coincidence that darren shan found me in the middle of my grieves for bad moments in langkawi - i'm not the type who scavenged for good books and spent countless hours in kinokuniya reading the previews of all the books there is. no. aunty lin thought i might be interested and she lent the first one. and again..... i went back to my imaginary mood and this time, actions were there. i got remotedly in depth with the vampire saga. the inspirations was too much for me to hold to myself. they made good essays for spm.c: most of my essays back then was a bit of something that darren shan has absolutely influenced me. in the end, i made friends and still was in good terms with my own world, i felt great! great, knowing that my two worlds could coexist simultaneously.c:

i had fun playing up with my immaginations that as i grew up, it seems to have washed up. i was out of reading materials. i kept watching harry potter again and again, feeling i'm too old for that already. reading darren shan was never more than once. they were thick books. i didn't want a very good experience bore me to death. i was out of options which just left me to blending in with the crowd. it was a bit harsh - college life. but the results were promising.;p i didn't find anyone who had the same dark character - in love with vampires, condemning the existence of werewolves and emm.. dying to get bitten ;p - as i am. but i did find those who at last had the same sense of humour i did. they were one of my first friends to actually make me laugh and go back to bed, laughing in my sleep. waking up and still laughing. lol. no kidding. it was a tight bond. they were like family.c:

then... it all came to why i'm writing about my craps today. twilight. they are my new obsessions now. it came to me with perfect timing. as i said, i do not scavenge.c: it was suppose to be a present for my teacher. fortunately, i was too lazy to get my fat ass to fed ex to deliver. it ended up in my wardrobe. neatly wrapped for almost a year and a half when mak decided to forget about it and tear it open. put it up with the rest of the books. it surprises me that i didn't notice how much of a life changing experience it would be. what with it's plain covers - i ddnt care to read the preview - i barely noticed it was already out of it's wrapping. it was 29th august. i was bored and frustrated i didn't get to go out with my friends for the parade. i still am - they had a good time.:s so i went to that little small library we have at home and rummaged through the books for any signs of eye-catching materials. that black book with the hand and apple hit me. i thought - why not. no harm done. and as i started, i felt bored. - frustrated really that it was dragging. but then, time passes so quickly for me. the temptation to resist buying new moon was overwhelming. it was almost... excrutiating. to wait that long. my hormones were being impulsive. i never felt that way about a series before. but twilight ripped me.

i am currently obsessed over edward cullen. i really am which at a point is frusrating because he is just a fictional character. seee.... i am depressed. as much as i wouldnt want to say it. i feel useless of lazing around at home when all my friends are busy going to lectures. again... my loud imagination brought me back to life. it opened up a door for me to escape to. my own dreamworld. i never thought of the necessity to have such an immature pretense. now i do. and i can say that i'm quite a grown up. and i thank God. for this unique set of mind i have. it saved me a lot.c:

plus....... twilight's movie is releasing this november. of all the years, it had to be this november. told you. they came for me. just like harry did.c: i'm glad it wasn't any sooner or later. currently, i am... content.c:

C.E.D

why i hate driving in the rain

2008-09-04T14:37:00.003+08:00

well as much as it is dangerous, i found driving in the rain. even small drops is such an annoyance. why?..

1. i hate the wiper. when it goes swoosh2, merimaskan!
2. it gets too loud sometimes that talking would be something impossible. and silence is none.
3. i have bad vision.
4. when a car stops, the tyre screeching, i get goosebumps.
5. i'm just simply not the best driver in the world.

driving back home after sending bubu to ukm, was quite an almost near-death experience for me. well almost. on the highway, my tyres sort of lost their grips and my car almost skidded that i had to press the brake harder than i could possibly imagine. fyi - i was only driving 60-70.

on the way back after the toll, thanks to my blurry vision, i mistook a van on a halt with hazard lights to be 2 motorcycles. -_-' and this encounter was as scary as ever. because i had to use my handbreak.

talk about bad luck!

merdeka merdeka

2008-09-02T12:37:00.002+08:00

i wouldn't quite say that my merdeka was so much of a patriotic act for me. i was in the loo. doing you-know-what.. happily with twilight accomponying me.c: it struck me as much when i heard the yellings of merdeka on the telly. still, i couldn't have just waltz right out the door to yell the same. -_-' and soo, i continued my twilight romance. what a refreshment after so long.;p

after the loo incident, i went out again with my newly found obsession (well, not really new though). at 1 or so, we had a massive blackout. a sudden one too. so much for trying to be patriotic huh? we ended up lighting tea candles around the house. i wish bubu was around. he always has a thing with candles and silence.;p but then again, he always was. i texted him all the time.c:

of course having camwhores as my sister and cousins, the snappings of pictures never ended. what's more, a new camera there baybehh! their camea lah as a matter of fact. mine would be old news by now. lol. but still, it has never dissapoint me. what a baby .c:

it was until 2 or 3 that we stayed outside. that was before the mosquitos started attacking like bazukas. demmit. all the while, i was so addicted to edward cullen and my whole vampire immagination again. i slept at 4. in candlelights, mosquitos and such unpleasent warmth. -_-'

but wth. i can even sleep in a cave. lol. i woke up to poop again at around 8. the elecritcty was on again by that time. and then... starts a new day. the last breakfast and lunch for the next month. hu la la.

currently, ive just hung the clothes outside despite the black clouds appearing. oh well, at least it won't be as hot. i'm glad bubu brought his cable with him. i missed IMing with him during puasa. c: actually i missed him. the end -

... am sooo looking forward for 'new moon'. lucky for me, there's something to be obsessed about. ;p

fcuk it

2008-08-05T18:40:00.002+08:00

what annoys me:

1. people asking so many things at once.

2. people considering i live only for them and i do not have other plans

3. being asked the same question again... and again... and again

4. nosy people

5. hot weather

6. nothing to do

7. overdose of sleep resulting into headaches

8. when arman doesnt go for kumon or be even late at it

9. stupid movies where the subs and scenes are not alligned

10. getting annoyed at the wrong people

11. see sth that i do not approve but do not have a say in it

12. replying a lot of messages with my stupid keypads. (i want a sedekick!)

13. waking up late and continuously regretting it. :s

14. having to feel guilty just because i dnt think i have time for my friends

15. not spending quality time like i'm suppose to.

i hate my current position. :S

my friday

2008-08-02T03:11:00.003+08:00

quote of the day : "bestfriends gives room for mistakes and forgive each other to laugh again"

today, my day started late. *lagiiiiii...* serioulsy, if it wasn't for bubu's call, i would have lay dead-ass in front of the laptop snoozing myself. yeah. and when he called, aku baru nk mandi. macam effing watafak je. *tak guna punya girlfriend* resulting into, being late picking him up. sorry sayang. :D right on time, went straight to pick azza and arman. no cussing there. now i know the trick is "abg kamil ada kat rumah". ;p

it was so hot. superly hot today okay. that azza would rather wait for me to get dress even when she's half an hour late for her tution. ;p kesian adik. no biggie. sejarah sahaja kottt. c: thens, we went straight to shah alam - icha's housewarming lah sangat. c:

i'm not surprise being early. well because, i always was back then. *ehem* so, JJS took a few rounds to get to the effing krystal condo. dan tahniah pada yaya kerana tidak recognize my gemersik voice *ehem* "hi, ni kawan nisa..." yelahh. dan saya ni kawan awak. lol.

eventually, we made it. phewh. and yapp yappp. makan makan. mai was there (ex-roomate do!)tia was there. yaya *obviously* and afeq (finaleyhhh...) and a lot of uitm people lah kan. mat2 dan minah2 account. pening2. lol.

kaksyam screwed up. she left the house and brought the keys with her. kesian azza again. missed her addmaths tution because the house cant be left unguarded lah kan. sial betul! so i had to leave early. well. not really as early as tia. lol. yang tu mmg datang untuk makan kot. haha. but anyways, me, ilya and tia took off at the same time. biasalah, "kawan sampai mati". lol.

godd. it was such a short meeting. i mean with the crowds and kecoh2, we didnt even get to sit down and talk/gossip - wtv you call it. i miss that do! we've been friends for what? 6 years? and gossips never fail to connect us better than anythingelse. hanya perlu starbucks atau caffeine yang tak overdose dan kepantasan mulut serta memori yang tajam untuk mulakan project presentation. - well said than done. heyppp. :D i miss my girls. haihhh.

so then, we went back. bubu was so patient of me today, i can never find a way to repay tht. thank you sayang. c: well, i did try one. did sending you back to UKM was okay? ;p so, we picked azza and arman up from home. i didn't want them to be alone at home without me around. and we ate at bangi lah. *jauhnyaaaaa* biarlah. family time. *winks* so we dropped bubu off and came home just in time because mak baru je sampai. *phewhewhewhhhh!!!*

tmrw will start early. for mum is going back to johor. her bus is at 10.30 am. it's 4 and i'm doing this blog. sial punya anak. pray for my undrowsiness tomorrow. i love yeh peoples!!!

p/s : we did have snaps for today, but gee. they were all effing ugly. i'm sorry. therefore, a reshoot/re-meet/re-hangout is in desperate need. c:

you know you love me
xoxo, A

yesterday.....

2008-07-26T08:55:00.002+08:00

gooood morning. and yess it's MORNING. 8:57am. and i am fulleyhhh awake. sent azza to fatin's just now. i hope they study more than bertepung gomak for the joker shoot. haihh. kids these days. -_-' so anywyas, todayyyyy... i am going out with nad ain bubu and probably : mus, seleng flop.. whoever in UM. mygodd lama gila okay tak rampage over midvalley. :DD too bad mak's not giving me any pocket money :S

ouh yeah. this post is not about today. it's yday. i bet you, it was pure BAD LUCK. :'c

it started in the morning anyways. okay aftnoon. heyhhh. i woke up late. nextt, i didnt flip through any notes or what nots. what better thing i did? facebooking allll dayyyy long!!!! -_-" then, i took a late shower, resulting into a late sister picking up dua gomol tu fro school. azza was approached by thinesh - wait, that's not my problem. - we went back and kaksyam did not cook anything excpt reheating yday's ikan goreng. not that i was starving but at least a light late bfast. so i asked kaksyam to fry the fishroe, hoping arman would make better use of them. instead he didn't, and there goes my no. 5 diet restrictions : no fried foods. grrrrrrrhh!! what's worse? -ramoulade. and lot's of them.

for the fact that what ive stuffed in in a day is practically more than i have in a week of my diet-trial, i thought 'okay, today is a jogathon day and i dnt care if i have to crawl halfway through, i need to burn them up!!' determination. haaaa, the beauty. not for long though. all that strong will of wanting to be "healthy" vanished as kaksyam shouted from downstairs that she was going home. GREAT! now the house is empty. then as i was going to send azza to tution, kaksyam wanted a lift. so whatever. nearby je pun. and when i went back, using the alam damai road, there was a roadbloack. shithead betul! i didn't bring my liscence and i looked drunk. but then, the policeman just waved away. phewhh la sangat.

so i went back, and continue facebooking - amende tah!!!! - at 6.30, i was all ready with my shorts and all when i forgot, arman had kumon. i cant be running around the area leaving my house empty. mak would flip out if she knew! :S so instead i stayed back, and yess... contnue facebooking andddd continue yapping up the fishroes with crackers *URGHHHH*

it was 7.30 when mak called saying she's going to come home late. so there, i wasted my evening of health over fishroe for mom to come home late. -_-" andd i was dead bored at home. sooo, knowing afiq was going to see bubu that night, i just had to beat him to it. ;p and i did it again. short noticely, i drove to UKM. ntahhh hape2 ntahhh!!!!! but i miss bubu anyhow. it was worth it. ;p biasalah, since when did i say 'okay, i'm leaving at 9' i would really2 mean it. we went out. the 3 of us. i thought ayu-afiq's gf-was going to come along. but neyhh. mahasiswi penat belajar. :D nearby mamak stalls je. bubu belanja. woohoow! member banyak duit! hehe.

i went back from UKM at about 9.30. tahniah lah. i was effing late. estimated travelling time : 1/2 hour. the kids are already out from tution. i sped a bit. and asked them to lepak at shifa. drinks on me. so i arrived around 9++ jugak kot and went to the gas station to withdraw money. two badlucks here:

1. my car brokedown. it just went to a SHUT DOWN mode. it was not responding. it won't lock, it won't start. i panicked.
2. the ATM machines were 'OUT OF ORDER'. i only had RM6 on me. *(&$$(( THhfuwF!!(&(h

i had to call azza down there. aske her to wait at the car for a while and went to arman with tha effing RM6 and my coin box. kalau lebih mmg ada yang kena basuh pinggan. :S thank god, i had enough syilings. ha ha. not FUNNY! at the gas station, azza was calling cikmat-the only person of refrence-and she was already managing the carhood when arman and i got there. solution : my battery wire or tube or wtv you call it was disattached from the battery. it was loose anyhow. and taraaaaaa.... my engine was back in line. and this time, i really stopped at any humps or bumps. *bumps?*

for a fat penganggur who's oblivious of her car's conditions, today's experience was the highlight of the week. mann. nasib baik ada cikmat. if it wasnt for azza and arman i wouldve drop dead and play bubbles with my saliva. *drama?-i know*

but no worries, i've tighten the bolt just now, and it is not coming off in near future, i guarantee you. c: i'm now waiting for bubu's call to note my departure time. haha. what a driver i am now. *winks*

xoxo, A

buat busy

2008-07-22T00:56:00.002+08:00

i know it's been sangat lama since my last post. ive been busybody + busy + forgeting stuffs(frustrating okay!) + busy busy busy.

latest updates :
1. maksu bought me a new hybrid digital camera!!!
2. maksu came down to KL and we went to genting for a 3-days holiday
3. fina is back in Denmark :'((((
4. bubu got into UKM for GEOLOGY (i'm so effing happy *kepoh*)
5. i am planning to get into dentistry in bandung for next year intake.
6. i lost my rm90 cheque :'( *mampos*
7. boo is flying this august
8. beta belum habis ganti puasa lagi :S
9. i am effingly fatttt
10. i am getting semakin malas as everyday passes by
11. I miss bubu so so so so much
12. today is my "HAPPY 9months sayang DAY" :))))) 22/07
13. I miss gossiping withhhh.. akak2, meme&icha, nurish, nel. :) *sumpah rindu banyak gila!!*

9 is a magical number. :D
quote of the day/night : 'i didn't meet you and i became yours. i met you and discovered i'm yours' <333

the promising photostrip ;p

2008-07-04T01:45:00.005+08:00

i did promised right. here it is!!! c:

the odd twin towers (meme we love you)

ibal tia icha me pau bubu

positioning (icha we love you)

tia ibal pau meme bubu me

tia, ibal - toilet (bubu we love you) *mine's more* :D me pau icha meme

loves <33333meme icha bubu me

my wonders xoxo pau tia meme icha me

more and more lovestia ibal meme bubu me icha

faces of.. joy? O.otia ibal icha me bubu pau

jams and tunnels 1bubu pau me

jams and tunnels 2bubu pau me ... again

klcc pitstop (melbourne packages)
clockwise: pau amir nabila me bubu

oh the flash -_-"refer to matter above :DD

and so you have it the expression of how i LOVE my tuesday.

p/s : all pictures in ou are taken in front of mom's care and please observe ibal's expression and bubu's slight expression to enjoy the strip.

thank you and have a nice day c:

an evening in the museum

2008-07-03T02:09:00.006+08:00

the lubang hidungs

so todayy todayy. to day i woke up early. yelahh. hantar azza arman je. then, i fell back into my default position (on the bed curled up with eyes closed) :D then ma woke me up. yapp yapp yapp. the usuals. lol. she took fina to the clinic because of her skin. problem. idk how to spell it though. c: yaya and tia tau kut. ;p

so when they were at the clinic, default position. they came back, bangun. until mak went to work, default position. haha. so in the end, i woke up at like 11. :DD tak mandi lagi. i woke up with the laptop in front of me. lol. aftermath of last night's sudden death epidemy. so belum mandi lagi, fins and i watched tv. lepas tuu. bzzt - default postion. -_-''

okay2 then i woke up at 1. itu cepat2 mandi sehh. nnt museum tutupp! lol. and yeah not forgetting the unstoppable jam. damn betul. so yeah. eventually, we made it to the museum. there were only 2 galleries so it was fast. had icecream later. bad karma : i broke my fav shades. sob sob. it was really my favouritest one. sob sob.

so thens, since it was still like early, fins and i decided we'd work it out while we still have time. we went to ou. ak ah. again.. -_-' fina wanted to go to f21. well, idk any other place that has it excpt for ou. lol. so we hit it. and this time we had no problems finding our way. jalan jalan jalan jalan. godd. it's been ages since i roam around with heels or wedges to be exact. i thought i had gout for a while. serious pain untiw cry oo.

so we went to a few shops. looking for stuffs. fina was just thrilled with emm.. everything. the dramaqueen tau! lol. we ddn't buy much kot. i was like crying inside. my elephantitis was killing me. so we stopped for a bite. a bite laa sgt. eee. and harini. nando's lagi. bosan!! lol.

so later, we went back lahh. it was a smooth drive. we wnt back like 6++ kut and surprisingly, the traffic was not at cursing level. not even near LOSER level. lol. so tenang lah sikit hati akak nk balik. lol. so when we got back. i slept. dari pukul 7 saaaaaaampai sekarang? haha. what a night. and now, i'm still sleepy. geez. i dnt get it. mana laa i got this baka tidur yang terlampau lampau ni. :s

i miss bubu still. :s

the ultimates

in some pontianak-like house :S

filling the empty spot *yelahtuu*

and that's why harga minyak dulu tak pernah naik2

the 'bite'

xoxo, A

yesterday was love

2008-07-02T11:36:00.003+08:00

hemo hemo. today i woke up early. why? because yday i slept early. oh yeah. the aftermath of too many laughters and bowling. *dah laaama tak bowling okay* c:

ouh and to bubu sayang and amir. i'm sorry about last night. yes, i did restart my laptop but eventually i shut myself down in front of it. ha ha. sumpah i didn't know how it happened. :DD

soooo yday yday was a blast!!!too bad we started late. damn it betul! i think the turn off was me going to maklong's hse in the morning. bodoh betul puny surat rayuan. seriously. i was at her house like until 10 ke 11 kut. lepas tu, went to BUBU's place. wait for him to get ready and all c:. dan rushing2 ke nilai to go get PAU. fyi. tak sesat. lol. madam tu pakai jubah okay. *grins*

so then, we straightly went to ou with pau changing at the back seat. lol. it was like 3 kot when we arrived. jam! so cepat2 and jumpa jumpa jumpa ICHA TIA IBAL.hugs hugs hugs. dah lama tak hangout ramai2 macam tu. c: MEME was with her sister then. we headed to Burger King for foood. lol. and em main teka teki. haha. see. baru jumpa and i've been laughing my ass off already. c:

lepas tu MEME datang. lagi lahh. the HAHAHA just dsnt seem to want to stop. lol but it did eventually. sebab si bapok tu nak pegi pindahkan barang ke keta icha.:D and then while waiting, we went to the archade. main the tembak2 apa tah with tia and ibal. tia. powerss!!! lol.

so, bila si berdua tu dah sampai, we went bowling. hahhh. as usual lah kan. being the very DOWN to earth makcikkk, i stay behind the line laa. *ehem* tapi the next game tak ehh. ada strike!!!! woot woot. thank you sayang! c:

2nd game rushing2 sebabbbb... we were like berapa minutes late ntah for the movie. hahaha. seriously, macam everyone was shouting each other's name. 'hahh cepatt !! cepat !! strike je semua !!' rofl. so we watched doomsday- 15 min late. it was like emm.. a supposed to be serious movie. tapi makcik2 kat belakang ni semua gelak tersipu2 pulak. haha.

so dah lepas tu. anak mama aka tia. kena balik lahh kan. blur betul.
" bila kau kena balik sebenarnya" "ntah laa. aku cuma cakap kat ayah aku sebelum malam"
haihhh. confuse akak tau! lol. so lepas tu, we went to snap pictures. ehh biasa lahh kann. that is always a MUST. photoshoot studio : depan mom's care. what a hotspot! lol. tapi sorry lahh. gambar2 not with me now. i'll post it ASAP. :DD

lepas tu bye bye. hugs hugs. sob sob. bila tah kot nk jumpa lepas ni. meme nak pergi penang dah. lepas tu semuaorang pun macam nak stat belaja dahh. okaylahh bubu of course boleh jumpa lagi. lol. whaa. semua dah dewasa. that's the toughest statement i have to handle so far. lol.

so thens, bubu pau and i went to klcc laah. adik seronok nak jumpa abang amir and kak nabila dia. lol. and yelahh. i thought i wanted to just stop by and give a quickie hello. c: eventually. it wasn't that quickie lahh kan. lol. awkward2. *cricket2* haha. pau had this sudden adrenaline rush.hyper semacam. O.o we teman kamil dan dia makan di nandos. aihh. that girl. if i see her. it must be nando's laa. tak paham takpaham. c: so then makan makan makan. cakap cakap cakap. and yikes. mak called. okayyy balikk balikk.

and so i tagged amir. bawak balik budak kecik tuu ke nilai. tak boleh harap. sesat lagi. haihh. -_-' that's it. my alibi of me not being the element of ajaran sesat all this while. lol. terbaaaiik. c: so i rushed back with bubu. btw, the menyampahness of today is kena rush back and parking ticket hilang. damn it!! damn it!! and there goes a 50~

so bubu drove like it's the end of the world. cewahh macam in doomsday laa sangat. no no. we have to hurry2 because i have to hurry hurry back home. :DD and i felt bad for being so fidgety in the car sampai not saying a word. senyapp je. i wish we could have played teka teki then. lol.

so after dropping bubu off, i drove like mad. imagine damansara to cheras in like 10 minutes. seriously. and the disspointing part is that. mak was already out with the girls when i got back -_-!!! sia sia je hidup. haihhh. anywayss. i had a blast and what i hate about this blog is having no picture. bodoh betul! lol. but there will be a photostrip later, i vow to thee. those people with me today. SUMPAH SAYANGG KORANG!!!!!

the girls' outing

2008-06-30T01:35:00.000+08:00

today i woke up a lot of times. mak's shouting. and then there's fina's knockings. and then there's kak aina and afia's jumpings. and then there's bubu's text message c: and then there's bubu's call :)) and then there's.. emm.. i lost track. but then i was really really up, when i felt like it. :D

i got myself concious dulu before i go and take my shower. go go gadget. so by then, it was emm almost 4? lol. arman went out with dad. so, tinggal the girls je lahh. after sending maklong to work, we went to Midvalley.

tell you what. Sundays and Midvalley is a catastrophe. seriously. mankind are loittering almost everywhere. getting so used to latenight movies, reserved seats and weekdays shopping, the GSC queue that ends at McD and people moving in and out of the stores got me wondering.. "where the hell did all these people came from?"

anyways, we bought tickets for WANTED. *finalleyhhh!!*
review from an anti-mutton communist : effing cooolll!!!! tahell with not logic. it's a movie!
and yes we smuggled sarfina insice. so innocent yet so convincing. c:

Before that, we had sushi. OMG!!! it's been like ages since my last salmon sashimi. seriously people! it was to die for!!! and it cleanses the bloody muttons i had earlier. :S no muttons for me anymore! sarfina was in joy. sonok makan pulut dgn ikan mentah. eyhhh.

girls will always be girls. here are a few snapshots. woots.

the girl loves her henna... and her sushi

sushi and loves <3

bloopers!

fins and ma

we love big butts and we cannot lie!

ouh btw, kak aina sprained her ankle in the theater because of freaking dimmed lights. to any GSC workers reading this, it was an accident and we could sue you for it! know what. the lights before, during and after the movie was just the same. takde biro teknikal dan tugas2 khas ke? kolej 12 pun ada!

so boo you GSC poeple!!
xoxo, A <3

on 'the' 22nd, i....

2008-06-22T02:23:00.000+08:00

SURPRISSEE!!!

no. my kampung tak ada broadband and no i didn't break into anyone's house for internet just because i need to blog. i'm in maksu's house. -the 5 star inn. seriously. i always wished my house would be like this. everyone's favourite. c:

so anyhoots. 2 hours more before mak starts yapping to go get fina. *winks*. back when it was 11pm di immigration, the jam was awful. i had to give it to this Singaporean makcik. it's bad enough that we were stuck in a jam for an hour, she had to make it worse by driving like an asshole. mahgodd!! she was driving so close to the steering and OUT of the line. and she has this face like "it's not my business if you hit some other car". aku rasa macam nak penyepak je! anyways, we're here so ta hell youuu. c:

today, i smiled. now, i'm smiling. and i will still smile for a long2 time.c: i love bubu.geram nak tengok dia menggedik lagi for me.c: i hate being away.:s i miss him. nasib baik dapat extra cuti than the other 'siswazah'. ;p *trying to look at the bright side of a failure* ha ha.

okaylah, i think i'm going to accompany Arman watching footbal. *GO GO NETHERLANDS* - macam pandai tgk bola je. kononn!! - reason for supporting netherland :

Van Persie
Dutch Lady c:

On 'the' 22nd, i... received my miracle c:

baby iman ;p

2008-06-20T20:06:00.000+08:00

today was an early day. mum didn't go to work. we went to ukm for the letters and stuff. met aunty meme. and biasalah orang mrsm get together moment. as much as i was feeling so fucking stupid and down and a lot other more these few days, i wished i was so much in lenggong. i really did. tak payah nk risau2 of all of this. you just have fun, go to classes, next sem datang lagi. minggu aktiviti (not involved), Hari Sukan (seriously??) lol. but it's just all that. makan maggi and get to iron my own clothes-tudung. -_-' yeah. i wish i was back in school. :'c benci laa being big.

anyways, we dropped off maklong's house today. met baby iman for the first time. he is soooooo cute. seriouslyy. ada lesung pipit wehhh. comel comel comel. too adorable for a normal kid. his hands are like 10% of mine. hayehhh. aku gigt kang! and.... he smells like milk and powder. :DD

the sleepy guy

'lesung pipit'

look how small he is kann?!

the mother of -now- 3. ha ha

so anyhoots. went back and i slept for the next 4 hours. macam lembuh!!! still am worried of me and bubu. apa la nk jadi. i have a lot to think of when i'm in johor. too bad. there's nothing much i can do about it. well, fina's coming. and, looking bloody forward for that kiddo. our long lost youngest sister. ha ha. so chop chop. mak's calling already. will update more when i get back. and yeah, pray i get to tell mak, i'd love to do dietetics or pharmacy in imu or aimst. pleasse pleasse. :s

XOXO, A

it's not the end

2008-06-19T21:21:00.000+08:00

i know i haven't been writing for a while (since i use to write almost everyday). i know i have a lot to tell. lagi2 about meeting the Egypt's folks. don't get me wrong. it was so much fun that i feel like sharing. i wanted to. i really did!! i t's just. i'm facing my worst period *yet* academically. i didn't get what i want nor my plan B or C or D or whatever. i didn't get what i asked for. what i had passion for what i know i'm capable of doing. they didn't give me that.

instead. they auctioned my results *i felt tremendously STUPID* i know i messed up at the beginning. i know i ruined my chances to get better opportunities. and i learnt that. i learnt that and i changed. i sprinted my ass off with what time i have left, with what strength i have left, with what courage i have left. and i was satisfied i made through. i did. in all my years of living, i've never tried to aim higher than what i can expect for because i don't want to end up feeling miserable like this. but still, that satisfaction was not there to stay. it was just dropping by.

some might say, i'm not grateful with what i have. i'm sorry. you can have it if you want. my mom has taught me better than to just follow what's told or what's given because in this case, we write our own story of OUR life. i was upset. i was heartbroken and all other emotional wrecks anyone could possibly think of. i keep repeating 'budak bodoh' in my head for as long as i can remember actually. indeed. i was happy for all my friends who made through. i sincerely am. i'm really happy for them. CONGRATULATIONS korangg!! c':

bak kata orang tua. sekarang ni, i am like bawah roda la kan. 6 o'clock straight down. i really am. i'm now confused. i'm torn between my instincts and my family's expactations (my mom's actually). unless you have problems with your family, who wouldn't want to make your parents proud and all. well, i didn't. and that is a big deal. i guess my mom wanted to be a doctor. but in those days, you can't really have much say once you've been offered better chances. kan? and when i took science, she saw the old her in me.

as much as it's going to hurt her, i am telling her. that i can't be one. with what i have, i am trying to be grateful and that's why, i have to move forward with this mistake i bluntly done sebab kononnya remaja lah kan. haihh. at least i have interest in it. i do. as vague as it may seems, i still have interests in health and sciences. because as much as it hurts not able to be a doctor, i'm glad i found out WHY i actually wanted to be one. i want to help people. i want to interact with them and share what knowledge i have to help them stay healthy. and that's what i want. so i'm good with health sciences. be it psychology, dietetics, nutritionist, pharmacy etc. anything to help :D

and so, i'd like to thank all those people who's been around helping me so much to stand up.
my mom for fighting through and pushing me forward, for believing that i'm still worthy, for never fail to believe in me.
bik ayi, being soooo goddarn understanding that i could swear she's been inside my head. for trying so hard for me too and supporting all the way through.
maksu for being the most supportive and flexible aunty i could ever wish for.just being supportive in everything i do.
azza and arman for listening to my pains and sorrows and help cheer me up.
maklong for being in labour holiday and still find time to make arrangements for me.
bubu sayang, thank you so much for taking me away when i needed to flyaway the most, when i needed to hear encouragements the most, for being the stronger one although you're having harder time than i am, for ALWAYS being there. alwayss. i know that.
saisha, ain and nad, for just being the greatest friends to calm me down and
all others for good memories that has been my strength to run again.

I LOVE YOU PEOPLE ALWAYS.

p/s: people say that Allah tests you for a reason. and for this big test Allah is putting down on me, sedar tak sedar, Allah has made me realise how i'm surrounded by such a great support system that maybe i wouldn't be aware of much at the beginning. i'm glad He gave me my family and my friends. it's true. He always has His reasons. :)

nostalgia c:

2008-06-16T01:21:00.000+08:00

tell you something, which maybe half of the population i'm associated to, knows about me. i am the dramaqueen of memories. seriously. i have these boxes. like piles of them under my bed and yeah, since form 1, anything i get or do, apa2 lah, is in there. serious! gambar belum akil baligh pun ada kut. ehem. so anyhoots. itu baru mukadimah okay. :D

i think. this is the best weekend i had so far-considering my days were only revolving around tvs, internet and foods. oh ya, except for when bubu swings by, helping me get through boredom and processing myself to 5 times his size. :D

so, the decision was made late because the news came out late. in the end, my mum surprisingly gave it greens. apa lagi. akak pun pack lee. nak jumpa oghang kampung. lama beno tak dengo khabo oghang kuale kite. hahh. the shah alamians (icha, qis, mai) came first. being girls, jumping up and down after 5 years of parting *drama* was a MUST!! and so, tradition wins despite every eye in the hall were on this 4-melodramatic gadis. mak geleng kepala sahaja. she left, and then came the eye candy-sameme. ha ha. candy lah sangat. ;p

the journey was fabulous. i almost forgot how it felt like driving up north. but of course, 3 hours could be a torture kalau nak main sudoke je kan. meme n icha had a blast talking their lungs out and yelah, macam biasa : keluar perangai buruk.

idiots!!!

yess, i was sitting alone dan pundi kencing dah penuh

arriving at kuala kangsar, i felt a tinge of excitement sebab macam dulu je. pakcik jual muruku tu. yang jual air tu. bas roller coaster. *sonok* dan panas dia masih sama lah. ami came, not long after that. and this is when, the usual craziness that i miss so much growing up with these whackos begun. okay, imagine : 5 passengers with bags one tiny driver and a kancil. it was near monstrosity actually (but i guess we've been in worse, lol).

behind : alia, mai, qis. left : meme on top of icha. ;p driver : bik ami. c:

okay, so as if things can't get any worse, ada pasar kau ptg2 tu. and of all the roads ami could choose to drive back to her house, she chose that. 6 girls in a kancil, yelping in red faces of humiliation and suffocation of commenting and laughing at the same time. GILA okay! ni semua perempuan GILA! rofl. sampai rumah ami, abah dia geleng kepala lagii. lol. and jaoul was there too. her house was magnificent. lawa sungguh!!! ouh, and not forgetting the memorable toilet. lol. so then, we dressed up and got ready for the night. which is when i just found out that jeans are strictly not allowed. *pffftt* i forgot we were talking about lenggong then. sheesh. thank goodness i brought a spare-lousy-pants. and nak taknak, akak pakai la jugak.

so, i thought we were late, by 8.30. well, good news, syimam, dayah, bella and kechik came even later. *what a surprise huh? NOTT!!* terkedek2. so i thought, by 9.00 kut baru kita hit the road. ada highway! uuuuuu. lol. and when we arrived, everybody and i meant EVERYBODY were in baju kurung. ta hell!!! it looked like program gemilang form 3 tauu!! and by then, i knew i could never had the courage to step inside. so i didn't. ;p

meme, icha and i went to raban ke apa and had our dinner there. time tulahh. everyone started to talk at once, reminiscing reminiscing. it was so much fun. and then, came all the dirty details about this teacher i have unfortunately failed to get to know because i freakingg flew off time form 4. should see the anger in their (meme & icha) faces. nak tegelak pun ada. ;p tapi yelah, orang tengah marah. nnt ada orang kena masuk tasik kut. ;p perangai sehhh. c:

then, we went back to lenggong and i met old friends. e-kin, hazani, jijah, boolat, flop, and a few others i don't really think i know that well. :D so enough said. the agenda was more on taking pictures and just enjoy the view of old friends. c:

vainpots

we chatted and went out with miss faye along with 3 other juniors. sampai pukul 2 pagi. hahh. amik! and this is when i lost my voice. tah hape2 kann. i feel like throwing tantrums and also tables to i don't know who, but someone at least. it's not logic kan. you come to meet your old friends to do what? shut up because you sounded like a fag trapped in a woman's body? i was pissed. dah laa. i have a lot of things to share with. old times laa kan. c: akak nostalgia beb. :D anyways, we sang meme Happy Birthday.

back at ami's mansion, ;p meme got bullied - alaa, for just frying drumets and frankfurters. hayehhh. still, she complained. nyampah! i envy them talking out loud when i could only listen and laugh in silence. but still, i had a blast! we talked talked talked talked talked talked talked talked talked talked until i think 5 in the morning kut. *selebet betul budak2 ni*

the next morning, we woke up and went to this new cafe (for mai and i) in kuala. the food was nice and we had a cake for meme. nyanyi lagiii. lol. a few others joined in later.

the birthday madam

loves

it was 1.oo pm when everyone moved out of the cafe and headed towards the bus station. i was still the deaf-muted being amongst the livings *bengang*. we said our final goodbyes when the ipoh people took off and then ami for her kenduri. then by 2, we got on the bus. bye lenggong. :'c

the drive back felt a lot shorter than before. i slept all the way. :D we arrived at Duta by 6 i suppose. and i received good news. baby iman dah keluar. yayy!!! :D bubu came to pick me up later. and the others went back too lah. hahhhhh. dalam kereta, bubu had to hear me yapping with my fag voice about all the things i missed being in lenggong. :D i wish he knew how it felt like. i love lenggong!!! c: *emosi siakkk*

babbling for today

2008-06-12T18:29:00.000+08:00

here's my theory.... azza and i would make a good team when it comes to cooking, eating, tasting and all those verbs associated to foods. c: seriously!! i thought our mash potato today was the bestest!!! i stirred, azza puts in the corn flour. macam kilang tepung kau! perangai sehh. ;p

and yesterday's potato. tu pun we both made it. sedappp okay!i love cooking what i love to eat lah kann. but i dnt think i have magical hands like some people. when i cook alone, my judgements would be soo off. dah tak reti masuk garam banyak mana dan sebagainya. and that would end up into disaster man! akak sendiri pun tak tergamak nk merasa. ;p

mak said today's resulted into better mash potato texture and the gravy was nice. arman, -the ultimate food critic- surprisingly didn't have much to say today. agaknya sejak misai dia dah tumbuh, he just have no comments for good food. ha ha.

so now, i'm in my room, digging my brains for leftover addmaths formula to decipher azza's test paper. ha ha. cikgu affendi is a huge factor for that, thank you. ;p like i'm going to remember how to find the circle measurement shit. tolong lah. tak boleh tau function cuti2 ni. lol. *dumbass* btw, kesian bubu is stuck in traffic jam. at least dia pandu perlahan jiwa selamat. a big relief there. O.o'

realising my blogs are like sumpah banyak for just a week or so, i just had to say something about it. yeah fyi, i'm bored and i'm too freaking lazy to reply comments in ms and fs. and so, while waiting for the peak hour for ym and msn session, this is my RnR. :D

okay now, i have to go packing for tmrw. btw, yaya and tia's coming back on Sunday. akak sonok ni!! ;p

the potatoes

the white-gravy

the lunch

amazingly, takde nasi pun orang melayu dalam rumah ni boleh kenyang for the whole evening. especially si sang pelahap tu. powersss seh!!

another favourite c:

2008-06-11T20:33:00.000+08:00

jason mraz-i'm yours

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it

I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted

I fell right through the cracks

And now I'm trying to get back

Before the cool done run out

I'll be giving it my bestest

Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention

I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

But I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me

Open up your plans and damn you're free

I Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love

Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing

We're just one big family

It's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved loved love

So I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait I'm sure

There's no need to complicate

Our time is short

This is our fate, I'm yours

Scooch closer dear

and i will nibble your ear

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror

And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer

But my breath fogged up the glass

And so I drew a new face and I laughed

I guess what I'm saying is there ain't no better reason

To rid yourself of vanities and just go with the seasons

It's what we aim to do

Our name is our virtue

But I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait, I'm yours

Open up your mind and see like me

Open up your plans and damn you're free

Look into your heart and you'll find that the sky is yours

So please don't please don't please don't

There's no need to complicate

Coz our time is short

This is our fate, I'm yours

what i love about us

2008-06-11T02:41:00.000+08:00

my mister pumpkin juice. x:

If I hugged you,would you never let go?

If I kissed you,would you cherish that moment?

If I reached for your hand,would you take mine gently?

If I needed a shoulder,would you let me cry on yours?

If I needed to talk,would you really listen?

If I needed to scream,would you do it with me?

If I needed to go,would you come with me?

If I fell for you,would you catch me?or just let me hit the pavement?

-anonymous

what i love about having abang kamil *ehem* in my life???

waking up wih a phonecall
having someone to dropby the house when there's only me and kaksham :D
get to take idiot pictures without feeling like an idiot
getting small notes on my phone, laptop etc
seeing a tremendous act of kancil transforming into an f1 car :D
realizing McDonalds is so beautiful c:
getting to hear familiar riddles from different people
getting pms and still be likeable
having a permanent blog/survey reader *oh saisha, ni pun termasuk kau :D*
still be looking good in jeans, tees and flipflops
having sentimental conversations *ecehh*
knowing i have a mr jealousy - alwayssssss
free meals
free rides
free movies
talking in hush voices with someone who would talk the same way back
knowing for the fact that i can make someone sleep very easily. ;p
laughing out loud
mocking other people or bubu himself *gurauan gurauan* c:
knowing when i post this, i would get an sms saying this -_-'
getting loveletters *ta hell. it's classic!!*
learning to tolerate
learning to adapt
learning to open up
learning to SHARE
learning to sruggle for the times shared and the times to share in future c:
knowing, i sill have a lot to learn c:
smiling to random thoughts
anticipating surprises c:
having a song that touches the inner spirit
making strong statements about relationships and be confident with it
listening to heartbeats c:
planning on vacations
fantasising other worlds
getting to miss someone and really meant it
starting to appreciate the term 'say what you mean'
appreciating every single moment passing by c:
go doodling on each other's hands
knowing i dnt know what i'd do without him c:
knowing that no matter what happened, i'm glad he came to stop by. c:

he is my inspiration! :D

a disgusting encounter

2008-06-11T00:58:00.000+08:00

well, actually, i've never really been a chicken like a real 'chicken' when it comes to lizards-cicak ehh. what i meant is that, i don't freak out when they're all over the room. but thanks to today-specifically, 5 minutes ago, cicak is a big NO! okay, here's the thing..

i went to the loo just now. to pee laa. sejuk mann. so, di jamban tu, at the wall next to it, was this biul cicak lah kan. not trying to bee stupid, *not even one kut, ehem*-knowing they stick to the wall, i just peed my self away lahh. so, time tu dia ada macam made a drastic movement okay. you knw cicak, they don't move slowly, eh hello, akak gabra lah. cepat2 nak amik the water hose kan. masa tulahh, it went like super biul okay.dia cepat2jalan ke water hose, my freakingggg hand. DISGGUSTINGGG okayh!! no choice, i had to whack my arm around like a loony sampai dia jatuh dalam lubang jamban. *flushhhh*

THE END

no more cicak for me,-lagi2 around the jamban area. i'm no good in slingshots. SERIOUSLY!

bosann bosannn

2008-06-10T00:08:00.000+08:00

harini sangat bosan. i am such a sleeping dramaqueen. i mean come on! i woke up at ten to 3. yeah. shut me up. sian kamil kejut tapi i tak bangun2 *yeah well, dia tidur balik pun-kejut lah sangatt* anyways, kaksham woke me up later on. mesti dia terkejut tgk aku macam dugong with a dozen pillows all over the bed-no kidding. so, my day was cut short to 10 hours. what do you do with the leftover time? ...surveys and looking for my webcam.

webcam aku hilang okay. seriously, i am so sure where i put it at. takkan laa the power supply, mouse and headphones are all in a bag and suddenly, the webcam takde kan? what can you do with a webcam and no laptop? perangai sehh! so anyways, i ended up cleaning the room. not like the entire room. just the bags. sheesh.

can't wait for tomorrow. :DD

it's a girl thing

2008-06-09T17:36:00.000+08:00

Do you sleep in your bra?
yeah

Do you enjoy drama?
at times

Are you a girly girl?
not really

Last person you hugged?
ma

Small or big purses?
big

Do you dress up on Halloween?
nope

Are you double jointed ?
nope

Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
a cave

Has anyone touched/smacked your butt?
yeah

Last person you hung out with?
bubu and friends

Do you call anybody by their last name?
some people

How many guys will read this just because it says Lady Survey?
bubu c:

Do you wear makeup?
nope

Ever cried at a movie theater?
in a cinema, yes

Can you put on mascara without opening your mouth?
i dnt. azza does that for me. c:

Do you think Ryan Sheckler is hot?
never heard of him

Have you ever been called a bad influence?
yeah. ;p

THIS OR THAT:

Eyeliner or Mascara?
eyeliner

American Eagle or Hollister?
hollister

Heels or flats?
flats, definitely

Skirts or jeans?
jeans

Socks or leggings?
leggings

Hoodies or jackets?
hoodies

Heels or sneakers?
sneakers

Straight or curly hair?
his straight hair. c:

Hoops or Dangling earrings?
buttons

Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
dark haired c:

Are you currently frustrated with a guy?
no no no and no >.<

Do you have a best friend that's a guy?
uh huh

Have you ever had your heart broken?
thanks to results. c:

Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
lipo :D

Do you like your life?
3/4 of it c:

Ever walked into the guy's bathroom?
yeah

Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
ouh yeah ;p

Would you ever tell someone you loved them even though you didn't?
never tauu

Have you ever slapped a guy in the face ?
yeah ;p *good old times*

Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
ouh yeah

Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
definitely! not even trying to c:

Do you believe in the saying "once a cheater, always a cheater"?
tidakk tidakk

Have you ever had a good feeling about something?
ouh yeahh. like tomorrow's coming in less than 24 hours. :D

Do you ever wish you were famous?
naah

IN A BOY:

Cowboy or Gangster?
a joker :D

Preppy or Punk/Goth?
nice smell >.<

Well-educated or Dropout
in the middle c:

Contacts or Glasses?
not an issue

Funny or Serious?
80% funny and the rest to serious :D

Romantic or Daredevil?
the first one :D

Cute or Hot?
hot c:

Good Dancer or Good Singer?
dancer c:

Basketball Player or Football Player?
FOOTBALL!! >.<

Smoker or Non-smoker?
yeah. the later. ;p

Has a Motorcycle or Has a Sports Car?

anything but a motorcycle *basikal pun tak apa* c:

seremban's wedding

2008-06-09T01:29:00.000+08:00

okay, so weddings were never really in my favourite to-do list, but heck. everyone needs to go to at least one in their whole life - their's. c:

so anyways, there were two weddings. yes. in a row. belah lelaki dan perempuan lah. ok2, credits for the wedding this time, makanan - SUPERB!!! seriousssssss. too bad tak boleh tapau bawak balik. kalau tak aku dah tak segan silu okay.c: the one thing that was such a turn-off is when tak cukup tempat duduk. i mean. come on!! it's a wedding for godsake. you can't expect to estimate the number of cards given out will be the exact amount of people coming. sheesh!! and to my amazement, both weddings turned out to give the same surprise. oooooh what a shock there. NOT!
it was blazing hot and all i could think about is texting kamil kamil kamil *gatal* and a nice-cool-cushiony-somewhere to just sleep and drool my head off. of course, that came later. i don't think i'm mentally ready for another wedding in near future. well, except for mine lah. eheh. and for mine, i will make bloody sure that when i inveite 500 people, i'd book a place for 10k. amik kau!

mengada attempt uno

ini baka mak dia

yeah, don't tell. macam a potrait of the mother and her first-born child. -_-'

while there are still just the two of them. chemmeh!

the art of making faces

the excitement of self-potrait

just being pure sour

mengada attempt dos

cikgu vain dan murid vain

lesson learnt : pleasse start planning your wedding 2 years earlier from actual date. *kononn* ;p

btw, they used bunga hidup. best kan? c:

back from seremban!

2008-06-08T23:40:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: half-sleepy half-bubbly

Current Music: hi-5 and chans pok quepens

Current Clothes: baju kelawar

Current Annoyance: my hair

Current Smell: like an old fart

Current Thing I should be Doing: what i am doing :D

Current CD in Stereo: don't know don't care

Do You remember your first love: it's eric

Do You like the taste of alcohol: the smell is just too avoidable, i dnt want to imagine the taste

Do You have a best friend: yeahhh and make it plural noun

Do You believe in Love at First Site: yeah! >.<

Are you shy to make the first move: i don't think so. ;p

Last thing bought: McDonalds!!!! *i'm the sucker for american's junks, tq*

Last thing you ate: dominos *arman belanja okayy L&G*

Beer or Cider: air kelapa

Drinks or Shots: drinks yo

Cat or Dog: human babies

Single or Taken: taken and tied up >.<

Pen or Pencil: pencil

Gloves or Mittens: gloves untuk berkebun dan cuci jamban

Coke or Pepsi: coke *sorry mummy* c:

Who do you want to kill: those people involved with incests and sharlinie's kidnapper

Who do you want to look like: tunku abdul rahman

Who do you want to avoid: rappers *darn you betchasss!!!*

Last Person you saw: azza and arman *still am seeing*
Last Person you spoke with on the phone: nyayi c:

Last person you Hugged: imran >.<

Last Person you IMs: my encik kamil *still am*

Last Person you Kissed: imran *sorry sayang*

What is your favorite meal: a big one

What is your favorite restaurant: no.4 jalan AU5C/2 and no.15 lorong adil

What is on your bedside table: everything

What do you eat when you raid the fridge late at night: chocolates or anything edible

What is your bed like: lots and lots of pillows. *i loike*

Spontaneous or Planned: half of both

What do you carry with you at all times: vaseline

How do you drive: insanely AWESOME!!! :D

enjoy food lovers.

2008-06-07T11:50:00.000+08:00

Because of food
(To the tune of 'Because of You' by Kelly Clarkson)

It's just not fair; I ate the same as you did
I cannot let myself
Touch any food that's so greasy
I'll never be - the way you look
So slim you are
I've found the hard way
To never let me get so large

Because of food
I have to stay away from MacDonalds
Because of food
I cannot shop down the same aisle as the Oreos
Because of food
I find it hard to watch the TV, where food surrounds me
Because of food
I am constrained

I can't lose weight
And it's very wrong - cause you always point it out
It makes me cry
Because you know my weakness for big pies
It's hard to make
Me smile, behind the struggle in my life
I can't be as thin as a rake
When I never looked like that to start with

Because of food
I have to stay away from MacDonalds
Because of food
I cannot shop down the same aisle as the Oreos
Because of food
I find it hard to watch the TV, where food surrounds me
Because of food
I am constrained

You ate my pies
It makes me cry every time that you eat
It seems so wrong
I should have known there'd never be a leaner me
You had no thought - only yourself
You just seem so vain
Now I just cry, it's a struggle, it's a fight
For I can't be thin

Because of food
I have to stay away from MacDonalds
Because of food
I cannot shop down the same aisle as the Oreos
Because of food
I try my hardest just to ignore food you bring
Because of food
I don't know what to eat - every food's a sin
Because of food
I blamed myself for this strife - I'm feeling empty
Because of food
I am constrained

Because of food
Because of food

2008-06-07T11:00:00.000+08:00

he has never yet fail to entertain his oh-so-faithful fans!!!

the riddle c:

2008-06-07T04:40:00.000+08:00

it's amazing how this fabulous sweetheart has turned my sour day into a day for tears of joy *so much for the drama*. now i have better moods for better postings. i love you sayang. x:

the million dollar face. ;p

i miss being real teenagers with him. although we weren't having the oh-so-famous high school love affair, there was nothing more enjoyable than adrenaline rush in college life. >.<
now that we're out of college, darn it lah! ;p

the McDonald's love affair

jack and jill c:

eating disorder uno.

another McDonald's hangout.Ronald's an idol!

the cake bashing ceremony. -3 days late-

eating disorder dos

okay, nobody said anything about getting ready for a shot. tahniahlah pada muk.

for what is worth, the hair was THE bomb L&G

well, he does not smoke. I DO! c:
dia suka buat lawak bodoh and i'm a sucker for laughing at it. >.<
*fyi : i always find it not fair that he eats a lot, and i'm the one getting cellulites. :D
**another fyi : all these shots are before/after a meal. seriously!

2008-06-06T20:02:00.000+08:00

i just got so in love with this song. <333

a bore or maybe a boar?

2008-06-06T18:38:00.000+08:00

yesterday, i went back late. and thanks to my heroic rebelling acts towards mom's temper, i didn't get to sleep at all. tahniah lah. and the one thing i hate about sleeping late or let's just say not having a night sleep at all, is the feeling of biul kan macam skarang. hayehh.

konon lahh konon i was going to pick my laptop up today. mat HP tu mesti dah naik bosan seeing my laptop not budging at his office. so, i keep getting all this phone calls and text messages "dear Ms Alia, bla bla bla.." sian la hai. okay so next, today's eating disorder has just gotten worse. there's nasi, mcd, roti kaya. and all of that, for freakinggg lunch. it was a puking scene no offense but yeah.

anyhoots. a big JOY for today is those two fatsos. godd i missed them like sumpah banyak kau!!the tickerss. <33

adik talks a lot right now. enough said for kakak lah. mimooo. chemmehhh. and he speaks english too. i bet it came a lot from TV. MR INCREDIBLES to be exact *misendibles*. okay can never get enough of them both. believe me.

okaylah okay. the real deal about mood disfunction for today is because i think i'm disappointed over an issue PLUS i dont have ain and nad to talk to. that is actually the main thing you see. i dont really talk about my friends at home. or mainly anything i talk about when i'm around those two. so, being a loud bitch, it's kinda hard to just shut it up.

and when i shut up, i think a lot. i even think a lot in loud conversations. so when i'm quiet, the thinking becomes double.. kot? but anyways. dah banyak pikir ni. akak jadi macam banyak temper tau!! asyik nk marah and even a slight 'everyday' malay joke ticks me off INSTANTLY. susah laa. dah susah nk gelak dah skarang. hayehhh. and the frustration is just not getting better.

i think i need to have bubur ayam McD. thank you mr ronald, for your greatest creation!!

2008-06-06T03:12:00.000+08:00

today started late. and i mean really late. my days have never really changed from one day to another. nothing special. effing ha ha for that. but however credits for today due to a long time spend outside famishing myself rather than potato couching at home. so well done. the term is hanging out, not jogging. *do take note*

i miss hangouts actually. today was a bit like it although i wish we were all around. laughing as always. and yes, i'm a choosy bitch when it comes to picking stupid jokes - depending on the joker. i dont think i laughed a lot today. whatever.

anyways, i'm looking forward for the days to come - though it will still be the same. no actually, i'm looking for better moods. hayehhhhh